I read with every broken heart
change begins with you. If you’re tired of living in a shitty, hate-filled world, you need to start going out of your way to reverse it. Don’t just float with the flotsam. Take action, in some way, every day.
I have these panic attacks too. My grandfather (an atheist) who I loved, and still love, so dearly died of cancer a few years ago. He seemed at peace with it! I didn’t understand. I asked him why he wasn’t scared of dying and I told him about the panic attacks that I have frequently.
He then took a deep pause and started describing the first time he took me to Disneyland. That when we got there I was stressing and scared of the time that I would have to leave…. that I wouldn’t get my fill in or see everything I wanted to see. But he described that by the end of the night- though I didn’t get to see everything- that I was tired and just wanted to go home. I had a feeling I couldn’t have ever expected or imagined at the beginning of the day.
He said that death is like that. That you can’t describe the feeling but at the end you feel your time is done. Not like he didn’t want to stay!! But he had that feeling of completeness that he could never have imagined when he was younger. That comforts me. Like that feeling of never thinking you’ll feel happy when you are depressed… I am comforted in his words that the outlook and sense of acceptance is easier at an old age… and it’s something we can’t imagine now in our lives.
I hope that helps. It helps me get through the tough times.
Piazza, New York Catcher - Belle and Sebastian
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The Flaming Lips - Do You Realize
Someone today told me my tumblr posts leave them worried about me. Here’s a very non-emo post.
The problem, often not discovered until late in life, is that when you look for things in life like love, meaning, motivation, it implies they are sitting behind a tree or under a rock. The most successful people in life recognize, that in life they create their own love, they manufacture their own meaning, they generate their own motivation.
For me, I am driven by two main philosophies, know more today about the world than I knew yesterday. And lessen the suffering of others. You’d be surprised how far that gets you.
-Neil deGrasse Tyson
If I wait for the right moment,
would you say yes to me?
Reindeer Section - Will You Please Be There For Me
Only in dreams
We see what it means
Reach out our hands
Hold on to hers
But when we wake
It’s all been erased
And so it seems
Only in dreams
Weezer - Only in Dreams
